Married Life

Look at my hot husband. Just look at him. Hot. 

Who needs makeup?

People keep asking me how married life is, and I don't really know how to answer them! So far, it's not a lot different than dating other than we get to share a bed and make love. I almost feel like they're asking about the love making, and it's none of their business! (It's great, by the way.)  

We've been married a little over a week now, and I love it. I adore my husband. He's a cute one, and he's so darn sweet.

He's a hard worker, so his 5:30 alarm clock isn't my favorite thing, but I do love that he doesn't ever leave before waking me up with like 12 goodbye kisses. I hate it when he leaves. 

I've heard that he'll start doing things that annoy me, and so far I've only found one! He chomps his teeth together while he's sleeping, and then denies that he does it. I've found an easy solution to this problem though. I just casually stick my finger in his mouth to stop it, and he's such a loving husband that he doesn't bite my finger off while I'm doing so! He doesn't even wake up or anything!

We take naps a lot. Like a lot more than I ever expected. We just really like to cuddle, I guess. 

And sometimes we go to bed at like 7 p.m. We're getting old. It's great. 

Wedding Playlist & Realizations

I'm putting together my wedding playlist, and realized that Allen and I don't have similar music taste... like at all. 

I don't have a favorite song, but among my favorite are a blend of artists that sing soft, sweet songs. I love the upbeat songs as well, but they just don't seem to touch my heart in the way that my favorites do. And Allen? Well, he loves the upbeat stuff. 

Music is an extremely important part of my life, and the fact that I don't share musical interests with a lot of my friends, or even my future husband, makes me sad. 

So as I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself as I look through my music, I found this song:

Did it make me cry? Yes, it did. 

And it made me realize something.



I used to find myself overwhelmed by sadness. I'd hide in my room and cry and cry all day, and I couldn't quite pinpoint why. My world was ending while the sun shined around me, and I didn't know how to stop it. It happened frequently, and while I think I seemed to be a pretty stable person to all of those around me, I was really on the brink of crumbling at any second. A lot of people don't believe in depression, but I can say first hand that it's a real thing. No matter where I ran, the sadness was always hiding around the corner to catch me. 



I can't recall having one of these days since I met my prince charming. 


Shared musical interests or not, he loves me for me, and I love him too.

Things that are of the Devil.

1 - Pap Smears
2 - Calories
3 - Squats
4 - Pamphlets regarding the reproductive system.

My day consisted of far too many of all of the above for my comfort.

On the other hand, today was also rather eventful in good ways as well. 

1 - The OB/GYN's Scale told me that I was 143.2 lbs. I think that's quite the accomplishment from the 160 + that I was in high school. And it's still going down! 

2 - Zumba : Hot Hula. Aside from the fact that this class is buckets of fun on it's own, The Hula instructor told me I was really good at moving my hips. Awkward Toni is good at moving her hips. SCORE!

3 - We planned our wedding luncheon in a matter of 5 minutes. The reception is clocking in at 3 months so far, so it's an impressive feat. 

4 - I'm registered for school through fall, and so is the cute fiance! 

5 - I GOT A NEW JOB! :D Paid Training starts on Monday. I couldn't be more excited.

6 - My (tuscany gardens) boss sent an auto-text to me saying "I'm in a meeting with a bride, I'll call you as soon as it's done. I love you!"

It's always a bit awkward when your boss declares his love for you, but it makes for a good laugh when you realize the text was meant for his wife.

7 - After months of talking to representatives at turbo tax and H & R Block, and never being able to contact the IRS, I FINALLY got my taxes done. Thank goodness for helpful ex-boyfriends. 

Cedar City Is Getting a Temple, AND a Toni!

Excuse the crappy phone picture with a couple random people in the bottom.

This is the Salt Lake Temple, and I'm getting married to my handsome fiance there in just over 2 months. I couldn't be more excited, or stressed! 

I was a bit late in getting to listen to the Saturday session of conference this last weekend, and much like the text that I got from Allen in October telling me about the missionary age announcement (when I was working instead of watching conference), I got a text telling me that Cedar City was getting it's own temple. I happen to think that this is pretty darn exciting news due to the fact that, (Drum roll, please) 

We're moving to Cedar City! 

So we're going to have a temple right there in our own little city!

The church is true, brothers and sisters, the church is true.

love & gas

Sometimes he's super cute and cuddly,
and other times he's super gassy.
Sometimes I want to smother him in kisses, 
and other times I want to kick him in the shin. 

But every single moment of every single day, I love him.

This is real love like I've never experienced before, and I couldn't be happier.
I love him, and I can't wait to spend the rest of eternity with him. 

Bridesmaid Blues

Hi there. 

As you probably know, I'm getting married to my best friend! He's cute, he's silly, he opens my doors, AND he's a good kisser. Ah, I'm in love. 

So now comes the stressful part: PLANNING THE WEDDING. 

I went dress shopping, and found my dream dress. CHECK.

Picked adorable colors. CHECK!

Venue hunting, and found a beautiful venue. CHECK.

Photographer hunting, and fell in love with some pictures. CHECK.

Picked my gorgeous bridesmaids. CHECK

Now comes the part where I'm ripping my hair out. Bridesmaid dresses. Who knew it would be so stressful?

Here are my requirements.

In my colors (Yellow and Grey)

Vintage

Knee length

Must have sleeves

Available in sizes between S and 2X

Less than $100, preferably closer to like... $20. 

Minimal alterations required.


So... If you can help a sister out, please do! 

Coach & Caillou

One of my favorite teachers in high school was Coach White. I took his psychology class because I thought psychology was interesting, and I ended up in his AP class and as his Student Aide because he was just that cool. 

He had a couple cute kids that we would hear about often, and apparently they had a fascination with the cartoon character Caillou.

One day, as we were learning about serial killers, the Caillou theme song found it's way into Coach White's thoughts. He started by humming it, then singing it, and by the end of the class he was whispering it psychotically as if it were some sort of creepy mantra. 

I guess this memory sticks out because it's so easy to relate to. Everyone's had a song stuck in their head that stayed there for so long that they felt as if they should checked into a mental hospital because it's causing a mild nervous breakdown. 

Some artists you can handle, and some (Cough, Ke$ha) Make you want to shoot something. 

Here's the theme song if you're lacking in obnoxious tunes. Knock yourself out, kids. 

Caillou Theme Song